Monday, February 21, 2005
VERY Late Post Five
What a fanciful feeling.
I apologize for my absence, to any of those who have actually read this blog. It is a difficult thing to try to be utterly candid and write exactly what is on my mind. For a while I was feeling too depressed to even try to write, so I stopped updating this thing after only four posts. Because I have an excess of time right now, I am updating it again, though the chances that I will maintain it from here on out are pretty slim.
I'm in a lot of pain right now, which is very terrible because there is a good chance that my head hurts like this as a result of the anti-depressants I have been taking; but my good mood is contingent upon these anti-depressants. The question is, do I sacrifice my skull for stable emotions, or vica-versa? I will bring it up with the doctor when I go back to him, perhaps there is something else he can put me on that won't destroy my brain.
Because my family is so religious, we have had a christian doctor all my life. Thus, when I spoke to him about how I have felt emotionally and how I can't sleep at night and such, he lectured me for a long time about my spiritual life. Don't get me wrong, I can always use advice on my spiritual life, but I do not think it is my physicians place to give it. I was a little irritated, but then he prescribed me some medication and sent me on my way.
My next door neighbors have purchased a pitbull. This is quite possibly the worst thing they could have done. I loathe large angry dogs. I abhor them, I cannot stand them. Being a paper-boy for as long as I was has instilled in me a great fear of strange animals. He's barking a lot, the John;Joy ratio in my life has just gone down a little. Goddamn mutt.
I guess this is all I am going to write for now. It's not really a conscious decision, I write for a while, and then after a few minutes some part of me realizes that I am not a good writer, and my brain shuts down.
Have a good day, whoever you are.
I apologize for my absence, to any of those who have actually read this blog. It is a difficult thing to try to be utterly candid and write exactly what is on my mind. For a while I was feeling too depressed to even try to write, so I stopped updating this thing after only four posts. Because I have an excess of time right now, I am updating it again, though the chances that I will maintain it from here on out are pretty slim.
I'm in a lot of pain right now, which is very terrible because there is a good chance that my head hurts like this as a result of the anti-depressants I have been taking; but my good mood is contingent upon these anti-depressants. The question is, do I sacrifice my skull for stable emotions, or vica-versa? I will bring it up with the doctor when I go back to him, perhaps there is something else he can put me on that won't destroy my brain.
Because my family is so religious, we have had a christian doctor all my life. Thus, when I spoke to him about how I have felt emotionally and how I can't sleep at night and such, he lectured me for a long time about my spiritual life. Don't get me wrong, I can always use advice on my spiritual life, but I do not think it is my physicians place to give it. I was a little irritated, but then he prescribed me some medication and sent me on my way.
My next door neighbors have purchased a pitbull. This is quite possibly the worst thing they could have done. I loathe large angry dogs. I abhor them, I cannot stand them. Being a paper-boy for as long as I was has instilled in me a great fear of strange animals. He's barking a lot, the John;Joy ratio in my life has just gone down a little. Goddamn mutt.
I guess this is all I am going to write for now. It's not really a conscious decision, I write for a while, and then after a few minutes some part of me realizes that I am not a good writer, and my brain shuts down.
Have a good day, whoever you are.
